It's 2:47am, and I'm still awake

I am really tired, but I can't sleep... why? Well, because I'm a bubble head who had coffee at 10pm. Every Thursday night is my girls night out and usually I go for dinner or a movie with my friends. Today however, I had a lot of work to do and didn't get it all done in time for dinner or a movie so I decided to go out with my friend to Second cup. On my way there, I told myself I was going to have herbal tea... but I walked in, looked up at the menu and decided on a medium vanilla bean latte AND chocolate brownie cheesecake - Yikes.

I got home at 11, took a nice long shower and got into bed... 11:30 I was still not asleep, I started thinking of all the things I didn't get done, things I have to do tomorrow and became even more awake. 12am - I'm still awake so I decide to read a book to calm myself and try to fall asleep - I couldn't concentrate on the book because my mind kept going over the things that didn't get done and tomorrow is Friday, so if I want to be able to have a calm weekend with Denys and Katelyn I have to do it ALL tomorrow. I know I will not be able to do it all on Friday (which is actually today - now), so I decided to do some a few things - since I'm awake anyways... so I managed to get most of things that don't require making too much noise done (because the last thing I want to do is wake up Katelyn)

Hopefully now I will be able to go upstairs and get some sleep - and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Katelyn won't wake up until atleast 7am.

The moral to the story - don't drink coffee at in the evening...

Why is it that when I'm really, really tired and had an exhausting day that I can't fall asleep?

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Where oh Where did the time go?

The year went by much faster than I could ever have imagined… One minute I’m setting up a blog and planning to write posts on a weekly basis… yeah right. It’s been 13 months and I’m just NOW getting myself and my life back into something resembling order. I won’t even presume to believe that I’ve got things under control again – no there is a new boss in our house and her name is Katelyn… J
So what I have been doing in the past year? Trying not to go crazy – seriously, between teething, night waking, growth spurt, teething, separation anxiety, and did I mention teething… I can’t believe they will actually fall out and I will have to go through the process again when she’s older.
Seriously, though the year has been great – full of challenges, but I guess that is what life with a baby is all about. And now matter how much you want to divorce your husband, kick him out and change the locks… don’t! It will get better, stress, sleep deprivation and the awesome responsibility of a baby will change your perception, you will become more sensitive, more moody, more clingy and dependent. I know I went through it and 100% of the moms I talk to say the same thing. Dads/boyfriends/husbands just don’t know how to deal with the emotional mess that we become so they tone us out, they become moody themselves and the fight begins about who has changed more… do yourself a favour learn to ignore them for now… in about nine months, you will either become your old self again, or your hubby will be on board, either way, the situation will resolve itself… I wish I had figured that out earlier for myself.
I’ve managed to write the a bit about each month in detail from email I sent to friends, notes I left myself and a bit of what I remember so the year in detail follows.

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